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Saturday, August 5, 2017

song2: "Setting Fire to the Fuel"

Totalist's first publicly released Adlib Tracker II song, "Setting Fire to the Fuel", is out now! Yes, that's an industrial metal 16-bit chiptune song made with an FM synthesis tracker. Harder and heavier than the last one now. It took me some months to complete and finally it's here. Hope you like it.

Internet Archive link with .wav download:
Video (Yeah whatever, it's on YouTube. Look below this sentence!):

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

Random Half-Life screenshot

I do play Half-Life, but not as much as Quake. I just did this screenshot thing only to show off something I saw in a custom HL1 map. It's a weak one named "Xen Again", but surely, most HL1 maps I played are better than this. The image is at 640x480, good enough for the game; my old Windows XP laptop has an 1024x768 screen while my Windows 10 gaming desktop has 1920x1080.

In v1.0.0.0, regardless of whether it's vanilla or modded, this glitch will pop up when playing on XP:

See that. Now that's that.

Saturday, June 24, 2017

Spiritual stuff (June 27, 2017)

If you're a spiritual person like me, you've seen this goddess image.
Nothing about video games and music in this post, so who cares? Anyone?... Wait a minute, does it mention Qua... Ah, nevermind.

I'm looking forward to building my own paradise, but how's that possible when deities like Utsukushiki, Misaki, Saotome, Hikari Kiwamuru, Esther, Nakanishi, Fukaki and Takaki are doing this "building a paradise on Earth" thing selflessly? I'm not a fan of Earth since its history was plagued with issues. My ultimate reception here is mixed, but that does not mean ignorance of its virtues. Actually, I'm not trying to be ignorant as I was in my early years. Yeah, the Earth goddesses (Earth, Saotome, whoever owned the planet as a goshintai, historically, currently, and in the future) love creation, and that's fun.

I am planning to become a creator goddess. Most of my cosmos are gonna be something along the lines of "Ancient Japanese/Nihongo", you know. Japan/Nihon was the heavenliest place on Earth back in the good old days, that's traditional for one thing: I believe the heavenly world was like that in the beginning. This one I'll become in the near-future is cool because she is loves Japanese/Nihongo stuff and she adores Hotsuma Tsutae and Shinto. She is obedient to such ancient East Asian standards and tropes due to it being like the heavenly world in its early years. Her name is Hikaru Reiko, and SHE APPEARS TO BE 16 YEARS OLD ALL THE TIME, which is great!

The new pure-hearted system thinks that something like India is more pure than that because that US-occupied island nation's struggled to keep up with its sociopolitical side and identity compared to that Hindu-loving subcontinent. I'm not interested in India in general; for example the term "Linga Sarira" is annoying to me because due to its foreign non-Japanese origins it's less obvious what it means in contrast to "subtle body". The ancient Japanese/Nihongo peoples didn't use the Hindu term a lot.

And that new system too... It's more like reinforced than recently invented because the old days had something like that system. I don't hate it and/or oppose it, it's just that it needs more Japanese/Nihongo people like Amaterasu for instance.

Healing and creation are like awesome toys; once you do something positive like that, you get used to it for fun. However, to me creation was basically the point of the heavenly world. When the god/goddess Amenominakanushi created it, it was about creation, period. He/she is perfect because of that reason. And then evil forces such as the Kumara/Lucifer-led Hierarchy (aka "Lucifer and the Army of Darkness") made people turn away from birth and creation and into death and destruction and thus the good beings including Esther resorted to healing because that was needed to stop evil from infecting the heavenly world. As a result, not many people created cosmic objects as much as they healed stuff, which wasn't it's original intent and purpose... or at least in my point of view that's the case. This same thing can be applied to Earth.

This is how the old humanity on Earth was splintered, some of the most complaining ones say that Earth is broken because there's too many issues in it. Some of the worst earthlings waged stupid star wars against celestial locations including the Pleiades for example. Actually, most of the new humanity view that as too narrow-minded since most of the flaws apply to the 3rd dimension. Sirius A faced the same criticism, but that's not as important as Earth. People supporting the 2017-2030 era of this world won't get along well with the "idiots" by reacting with disagreement over their sentiments of intense anger. Beings including Sumiwataru know this will appear starting this year (2017), but after 2030 it feels like that was a dying vocal minority all along.

So now I want to create my own paradises, because I didn't want a history as bad as Earth's where too many conspiracies and changes to list made it look like not what it was anymore. And keep in mind that Earth is a diversity-oriented place. At best it could've spawned a bunch of great creator deities, but unfortunately it seems like until recently, that was difficult to exist if not impossible; had it stayed very true to its original intents and purposes, then it would've been easier to happen. Most of the people coming from it will be healing-inspired like Arcturians. No insult intended.

So yeah, since too many debates about Earth exist, I think it is best to not have an obnoxious opinion about it. I hope and wish that the heavenly world be more creative after I become Hikaru Reiko.

This article/blog post was initially gonna appear as a comment on Shanti Phula's "Heavenly Message 32", but that was never approved within 24 hours from the early hours of June 24, 2017, so yes, I had to take it to (and expand it on) here for preservation.

Name change from "Hexcalk" to "Totalist".

See you later, Hexcalk...

Hi, I'm back! The reason why I was absent from most of March to June 2017 was because I suddenly became so lazy by watching too many YouTube videos and listening to too much music. Thankfully, I was able to start a new map in the wake of this semi-hiatus. This is known as "hc4". I'm tired of being associated with "anti-authoritarian" and "psychedelic" because my Quake works are never that. Sure you could argue that hc2 and hc3 are such because they seem so "anti-authoritarian" to you, but in fact they were only vaguely anti-authoritarian in the sense that only their titles, "Baneful Politic Comply" and "surveylLance ztatement" respectively, express those things. The maps themselves, when you play them, look nothing like it. There is no such thing as a medieval green-brick castle being representative of anti-authoritarianism, nor a tp-industrial-textured base being the same thing. To call me and my works "anti-authoritarian" is nonsensical because everything in them have nothing to do with anti-authoritarianism outside of their titles. And don't bring up calling me and my Quake maps "psychedelic" because that's not what I'm doing with my works.

I changed my name from "Hexcalk" to "Totalist" for this reason. Don't worry, I'll still use the name "Hexcalk" for my Quake maps because I felt I needed to improve the reputation of the "Hexcalk" name so that it doesn't get associated with problematic inconsistent maps such as my own one, "Peripheral Fundament". I was actually gonna release a fixed update of hc0 but that was shelved.

"Hexcalk" was conceived because I thought it was a cool mathematics-related name for me. "Hexadecimal"+"Calculator"=Hexadecimal Calculator. For casual Quake players, they'll ask "what is this?" since they have a difficult time finding out what relationship it has with Quake; in truth, that is unrelated to the game in that mathematics is not Quake's main priority.

"Totalist" was conceived because I wanted something more correlated to Quake's main priority: crazy old-school FPS fun. My theory that "Quake is an psychedelic anti-authoritarian FPS" is false. Authorities still have something to do with Quake however.

So yes, now I'm "Totalist".

Friday, March 31, 2017

Sock apparently did not die, the image lies.

hexcalk here. Unfortunately I am not proud to announce this: Simon "sock" O'Callaghan died in circa mid-late February 2017. He was judged by the central sun after he passed away.

Nah, just kidding, I lied. The deities told me this information was not true, so I striked it out.

I received information about this following the death of banker David Rockefeller on March 20, 2017. To hear of sock's death subsequent to Rockefeller's is rather too late, because I wasn't aware of the central sun's Final Judgment actions until when the announcement of the latter's death happened. I the author of this article, here, do not care about a banker's death. I am focusing on what appears to be a Quake map author's final moment as a human on Earth. Most announcements of deaths seem to be about mostly non-video game-related beings, some of them being corporates, Cabal, and Illuminati. But why do most of the spirituality community don't pay attention to material matters such as video games? Because they view it as less impacting than spiritual evolution itself. But yet people such as me do care about both spirituality and video games. They, along with me, also are interested in music (Nine Inch Nails is good), art, and architecture. I even like anime and manga (Neon Genesis Evangelion is great).

Please note, that received I confirmation from deities that Misaki Takakunoboru is the Central Sun goddess. So Misaki is "Wo" the central sun (CS, not Counter-Strike) of the universe and the Central Great Mountain emperor. I thought the CS of the universe was Messier 81, but I was wrong, and it's not Hikari Kiwamuru either. So the Milky Way's the center of the universe, I guess. If this information is 100% correct, then the celestial library thinks so. I already told you this "central sun=Misaki" fact, but it's already true even before I said this.

Anyways, let's get to the point. sock, as you all know, was a excellent Quake map author. He did work on custom Quake textures, then went on to make levels for the 2000s Wolfenstein games and Crysis: Warhead before receiving widespread critical and popular success in this decade (the 2010s) with Quake-related things such as the stealth mod In The Shadows, "Midnight Stalker", "The Horde of Zendar", the Honey Map Jam, Retro Jam 1's "Fallen from Grace", and his largest work, the modern Quake mod Arcane Dimensions (AD). There's too much great stuff by him to list, so it's best to say that he was very great, influential, and successful.

A group of deities assuming false names of Misaki, Hikari, Sanat Kumara, etc. incorrectly claimed that after February 20, 2017, sock's life ended. Then apparently he moved out of earth and into the central sun Misaki. According to this, he was sent there because he wasn't aware enough of the reality of the universe (e. g. Hikari Kiwamuru is the universe goddess). For this reason, she allegedly gave him the choice of reincarnation, and he did "reincarnate". Even then, I don't exactly know where he reincarnated. I was given a clue that he was starting another life in the United Kingdom (UK), but that's it.

His latest map was the Egyptian-themed "Nyarlathotep's Sand Castle" for AD 1.5. It was to be included in the Retro Jam 6 map pack (which was Egyptian-themed of course!), but after the deadline expired he turned it into an AD level. His last func_msgboard log-in so far was dated "2017-02-20 16:14:22". I don't know what he is doing now, nor his current condition. Is he dead or not dead?

I stated that "If whatever part of this whole page of information turns out to be false, then let me know." Actually, in response, the true goddesses gave me information that the false deities were destroyed because the liars wanted to attack me for simply disclosing the truth. A government agency (maybe the CIA) in collaboration with Microsoft attempted to steal some of my files before this blog post was made, for the same reason.

update: Sock is still alive. Proof: On March 30/31, 2017, he pinned a tweet he made on March 10, 2017.

Sunday, March 26, 2017

SATAN IS DEAD! The Climax of the Universe.

Hi, I'm hexcalk. Something unanimously important happened. SATAN/LUCIFER DIED! Or in other words Sanat Kumara disappeared on December 9, 2009. Well, yeah, he was a black sun when he was escaping the universe, but then universe goddess Hikari Kiwamuru (who was 12 years old at the time) detected Sanat, and after this event, known as the "Norway Spiral", she made him transform into a merciful goddess as a result of this occurrence. To me, I don't know exactly when the transformation happened and it is unclear whether s/he is still evil or not evil anymore, especially after I read this article on Shanti Phula that describes this event and its importance (link is a translated version of the blog post, courtesy of Google). The article primarily describes what is happening right now (mostly on Earth). Hikari's always a good goddess.

The reason why I state that Hikari Kiwamuru was 12 years old is that it takes many years for any deity's human age to grow up. I estimate that it takes at least hundreds of thousands of years (estimate: 1,000,000 to reach his/her birthday; that's more than 100s of 1000s of years). Kiwamuru is still 12 years old as of the time of this writing. Sanat was destroyed by Esther on April 10, 2016. Anyone can be resurrected and/or reincarnated after 3 days however.

This was an important event in the Reformation of Heavenly World which made the ongoing fall of the Hierarchy easier to process. Of course, it was that way, and it changed everything. The importance was felt on the entire universe, and that allowed the Reformation of Earth to begin.

It is stupid to believe that "Niburu will destroy Earth", because Niburu was destroyed in 2012 and will never exist again, thus Earth won't be destroyed in 2017. Earth will not end in 2030 either. Thus, Earth goddess Saotome survives.

And one more thing by the way: The Central Sun known as "Wo" (apparently Hikari Kiwamuru) is doing the Final Judgment now. It started earlier this year and is still current, yet it will end soon. This is not the only time it existed. Every one trillion years (the universe is 5,000,000,000 years old now), a Final Judgment happens.

march27,2017update: "she transformed him" became "she made him transform".

Tuesday, March 7, 2017

March 7, 2017 update to "My commentary on Cobra's/Prepare for Change's "MAKE THIS VIRAL! ETHERIC LIBERATION 2017-2-26"

"My commentary on Cobra's/Prepare for Change's "MAKE THIS VIRAL! ETHERIC LIBERATION 2017-2-26" was published on February 20, 2017 at 2:49 AM Pacific Standard Time. However Prepare for Change didn't allow my comment to appear in the "thoughts" section of the "MAKE THIS VIRAL!" page until after I published it. I didn't comment much in there because I thought they wouldn't make it public, when in fact they were going to do so, then I e-mailed to Shanti Phula to share the "MAKE THIS VIRAL!" article linked and mentioned in the "commentary" blog post. Shanti Phula did reply, but before doing the sharing thing through an article, they made an article partially about "healing computers" apparently in response to the fact that I used a gaming PC. They didn't hate anything, they actually did something acceptable. The inclusion of healing computer information was acceptable. Shanti Phula didn't share "MAKE THIS VIRAL!" until during an article posted on March 5, 2017 (Japanese). I hope it's translated so that it can be read in the English version of the blog: "Shanti Phula's Blog".

march11,2017update: Finally, today, the translation of that March 5, 2017 article is here:

However, a couple weeks after the making of "My commentary", I read a comment on that page from someone known as joachim. He stated that I was too closed minded when I made this commentary. On February 20, I was that "closed minded" because my spirituality is young. In 2014 I came into contact with deities first in that year because by then I was imagining silly anime cosmic goddess/human-girl battle/encounter fantasies; plenty of them were either frilly-dressed/fully-clothed (Madoka Magica and Touhou Project) or sexualized (Neptunia) or both, and the most exciting of them were sexy goddesses (Neptunia-like) destroying planets, stars, galaxies, and even universes. I have become less perverted as time goes by, but since then various deities have met and talked to me, and I've seen them. I don't much fantasizing as much I used to, because I realized that the goddesses (especially Esther and Hikari Kiwamuru) are actually nice, reliable, and honest. All of them are fully-clothed. Now I am planning on becoming a fully-clothed creator goddess with a kimono, so starting from March 27, 2017 (which is a possible ascension date), I'll attempt to embrace and actualize that plan after my gender changes from male to female. I'm not sure if I can ascend properly on the date, but if I can't on that day, then I'll do it on a later date, which means that the realization of me becoming a goddess can be postponed.

Okay, Cobra/Prepare for Change did disclose some info about deities (they did mention "Goddess"), but not much full names and clearly visible sharp portraits of the divine beings are revealed as something like referring to Misaki as the "central sun". The Event actually started on Janaury 12, 2017 with the beginning of her galactic superwave. In the same year, Saotome is predicted to do so many Earth Changes. Yes, and lots of light from great holy entities such as Misaki and Hikari entered Earth on February 26 successfully. Mentioning of a Creator can be improved, for that full names, visual appearances, and voices can be given. I edited this article with the strikethrough thing on March 8, 2017 because it turns out that visual appearances were already disclosed, it's just that the Hierarchy's vast plethora of agencies refuse to publish most photos, videos, and audio samples of deities. The holy beings can appear in both visible and invisible forms. joachim said this:

"You may wish to Re-Examine your Own Faith in whatever Belief you happen to have, For Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."

I think I might consider the time to do that to be possible. I do have attention span and critical discernment, but to me attention span is more frequent than critical discernment since I use attention to understand comprehensively whatever's going on.

Of course the part when I said that Cobra refused to disclose information about deities was actually an argument, because it was close to the truth, but not exact. In fact, not only Cobra but Chimera and the rest of the Hierarchy (especially in general) have a tendency to keep secret information about only deities who oppose them, not all deities. The reason why this secrecy happened is this: Since they wanted to retaliate against the universe for causing changes to the reincarnation system for gods and goddesses, they are against deities who are working to abolish said Hierarchy. Note here, the reincarnation system was criticized negatively by beings who would later rebel against the universe deity because in the words of goddess Sumiwataru, "they disliked the heavy vibration of Earth".

So did I make this viral? I struggled to do so, but I barely ended up making a small portion of it viral (the solar eclipse in Congo part). In his comment, joachim suggested that I "make this viral" and gave me a link to a YouTube playlist containing a video named "Revealing God's Treasure", which has something to do with Noah's Ark. I accepted the video's existence because I was a Christian back in the early 2010s. Well okay, I understand joachim's comment in that way. Thanks joachim for the helpful reply!

extra+note: The main author of Shanti Phula is Masatoshi Takeshita, who wrote the March 5, 2017 article linked in this page probably in response to the moment he received my email.